just like their love | linda m. crate

just like their love

i remember church felt like a funeral for my joy, the only part i liked was the singing; but it didn't feel like a community so much as it felt like everyone was waiting for you to make a mistake so they could judge you for it— when i realized i wasn't straight, i prayed and begged and pleaded but my prayers were never answered as i searched for answers in stained glass windows; and i began to question everything— if a loving creator made us in Their image, then why would i be punished for being who i was created to be; why would i be an abomination just for existing? why did purity matter and why did victim blaming exist? i lost my faith because i saw the lack of humanity, and through the nice smiles because nice is fake and an illusion; just like their love.

Linda M. Crate (she/her) is a Pennsylvanian writer whose works have been published widely both online and in print. She has twelve published poetry chapbooks, the latest being: Searching Stained Glass Windows For An Answer (Alien Buddha Press, December 2022).
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